It's hard to believe that 2015 is more than half over! A lot has happened during the first 6 months of 2015 and there is still so much more that can happen. I am looking forward to what the rest of the year will bring my way.
Back in January, I shared my word for the year, which is Happy. Since we are half way through the year, I thought it would provide a little update on how I am doing with my word.
2014 was, for the most part, an unhappy year for me. My break up with 2014 was a long time coming and I really wanted 2015 to be better...to be happy...hence my word of the year choice.
January, February and the first 2-ish weeks of March were not happy or good ones. I tried very, very, very hard to stay away from the negative and toxic...to focus on happy. I had to make a real effort. It was tough. Some days, I would just list things that made me happy- no matter how small- in an attempt to live my word of 2015.
My unhappiness was 100% due to my work situation. I was overworked and burnt out, which everyone knew but didn't care or would do anything about. I was injured and had a doctors note, but that wasn't good enough. I was working for an organization that had a horrible culture. Things were falling apart, the reputation was getting worse by the day, no one was taking us seriously, less and less people wanted to work with us, there was divide in what was once a team mentality, there were clear favourites and purposely excluding of others...it was just awful.
My supervisor was the most miserable person I have ever encountered and she pushed her misery on everyone in the organization. No one liked her. She was unfriendly and very difficult to work with- employees AND community partners thought this. She was a bully and constantly harassed me.
A blessing in disguise...everything changed and my happiness was back as quick as you can snap your fingers.
I was able to get out and very quickly found a new place to work. It's a much bigger organization and a step up from what I was doing. I am valued, respected, supported and welcomed into a great team environment. It is the complete opposite from where I came...the cultural, the values, the level of professionalism...everything is the opposite- and in a good way!!
Another source of happiness are my friends. I have made the point and effort to connect with friends, especially ones that I have not seen in awhile. I value my friends and appreciate the time we get to spend together. Being with my friends is a great source of happiness for me. I can just be me...I don't have to worry about anything, I can be imperfect. My friends don't judge. They love unconditionally and support selflessly.
A took some time to spend with someone who meant a great deal to me. While the end result was a lot of heartache and hurt- for both of us- being with this person brought me a lot of happiness. I was reminded of what could be and how the simplest, smallest things can mean the most. It's the small gestures and moments that I will cherish.
I was able to spend time in the places I consider home, go back to my roots and relish those one of a kind experiences with family.
Volunteering has been something I enjoyed but hadn't had the time to do. I was able to start volunteering again and was reminded how fulfilling it is to work on something bigger than me and to give back to the community.
Around mid-March, I truly began to feel happy. I had realized how forced and insincere my happiness had been at the beginning of 2015. A weight has been lifted...I was able to go back to my happy self, live a happy life and truly experience happy.